Thursday, November 09, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
most of those who are hopeless romantic, those who are looking for their soulmates, believed that they can, somehow, get a lover, who'll end up having a happy ending. but not all couples end up this way. many have risked their hearts, break them. some, after breaking up with someone, doesn't yet want to have aonther relationship because they're not yet ready falling in love .. they can not yet afford getting hurt.
it hurts when we love someone and it ends up getting broken. but what hurts even more is risking our hearts, falling in love, although .. we know that .. we are waiting for nothing.
... hard to accept the truth .. reality. maybe it's true that fairy tales are the only ones that get a happy ending. how i wish i was one of those princesses who met their soulmates - or prince, and end up marrying them. how lucky! but i believe we shouldn't rush ourselves when it comes to falling in love. there's a perfect time for everything. a time where everything happens. so .. we shouldn't rush for it. it will come on our own.
i wuld like to share this phrase to you .. i really like it. this was last year. when we were about to go home, me and my busmates tuned in at 97.1. their songs are nice, most of which are love songs; since it is valentines day. then one dj said someone texted him and he would like to share it to everyone. so here it goes: when you want to have a butterfly, don't run or catch it. instead, open your hand and it will come to you." as the same with getting in love. so .. don't rush it, love will come to you.
x4:33 AM
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
It's hard falling in love. risking everything you have in life just to be with your loved one. its hard loving the wrong way. Its just like you can never let go of a star when it was never at your reach. you can never reach your destination if you never risked taking a journey. and .. .. you can never lose someone you never had.
i also shared the same fate with others. it happened last year. i loved someone who, i know, can't just love me back. well, i continued .. you know .. loving the person .. but as each day passed, its .. its really hard. hard for me to forget because its really hard to hold on even if you know you're waiting for nothing. hard for me to accept the truth. hard for me to find another person to stop loving that person .. :`(
x4:32 AM
Saturday, October 28, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
senti mode. haha. no. just kiddin. a bit.
doesn't matter anyway. i just don't want to fall for someone who isn't really for me. it hurts. finding out that the one you like, has another purpose -
whatever. come what may. i'll just wait for tweenie to get online. -_-
x5:22 AM
Friday, October 20, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
wee! exams are over! a lil bit of project-making + remedial HO + outbound .. then leads to sembreak! :)) one major activity down! :P
x9:56 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
was it all because of the stupid dream that was really bothering me? i hope not.
first day of the quarterly exam. [major] twas kind of shitty if you ask me. i studied, prepared for the test especially in chemistry. CLE was fine. but chem was reeaaally hard. i wasn't able to finish the test! we even extended our time [though it was only ten minutes .. ]. i was mental blocked. there were some questions i skipped, and like ended up not answering it. i skipped it so i could answer the others before i ran out of time, but it was useless. careless dn! i didn't know we're supposed to use the hund's rule! iunno what's wrong. damn.
x10:06 PM
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
had a very nice wake up call awhile ago. grb. :))
i was really sleepy. after i woke up, i slept again. i have this weird dream about ..... wla na sha sa schl ee. nwei. she sounds like she's crying. i was talking to her on mobile, i can hear her, but she can't hear me. iont know what happened to her. dko na sha nccontact.
nwei. i reeaaally hate creepy crawlies. especially the ones that you usually see, nkadikit sa wall. lizard! yikes. everyone in my fam knows about that. aioko nga mkakita ng lizard ee, makalapit pa kaia . :))
kninang morning, while in the school bus, we were at the last house, before pmunta ng schl. twas a quiet morning, suddenly dsturbed by our shrieking and screaming. :))
my sister called my attention. i snobbed her thinking na nanttrip nnaman sha. pero nung pnancn ko, she told me na mai lizard daw sa window. in short, mai lizard sa tabi ko!!
imagine our reaction! cee rachelle sumigaw din ee. :)) as in non-stop. :)) eh we were seated in front, beside the driver, eh eung driver wla dun, bumaba ng bus. we really wanted to go out of the bus, pero di kami pwde dumaan dun sa side ko since andun eung lizard. :)) iunno how it got there .. weird.
we were trying to get out of the bus, pero antagal bgo kme nkalabas. cgaw ln ng cgaw. :))
ngcng ata nmen mga tao sa schl bus. scandalous thing eun ah. :))
pero grbe. kun mai spy cam eun, then nkta ng iba, sobrang humor. :))
x3:36 AM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
021506
i was waiting for you to return, but you never came back home ..
i thought you'll never leave me. but i understand. sorry if i wasn't able to fight my feelings for you. at least you've decided ..
it's better off this way. to go on with our own lives .. in different paths .. it's just that i can't forget you .. but somehow i will ..
i have to learn to let you go .. to hold off to our memories.
it was you who lifted me up when i was down. who helped me stood up on the ground, stood up for what i believe in, for letting me see and appreciate the world when i can't, you who held me when i lost my grip, you never left me alone .. you were always the person whom i turn on to when i need someone to be there.
i never should have let you go. my heart longs for you. i want to be with you again. but maybe through this i could pay back all the things you've done .. for the sufferings i've caused, for the pains i gave you and all ..
i hope you'll be happy in whatever path you'll take ., i'll just be here for you .. stay right here .. hoping, wishing and waiting ... ***
-excerpts from my personal journal.
x4:45 AM
Monday, October 16, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
as usual. it's been long since i last updated this blog. :)) lately, you may have not heard of me, or the things i usually do. i'm not that open to things or to my feelings anymore ..
haha. just kiddin. but really. i have stuffs to do.
i wasn't in a good mood by then. especially lately. iont know if i acted too much or what - but that was really how i felt.
and it was a bit embarrassing in my part - like i was humiliated in front of a mass. heehee.
twas good jentan's still there - helping me .. if it wasn't for her, i wouldn't have survive. haha.
no. but i reeally, reeally wanna thank you. i'll be here for you no matter what. tweenie kta ee. sna nbbasa mo toh. :)
x5:24 AM
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
-- you left me here with nothing to be done, but to think of you .. and you are the only thing .. that keeps on running in my mind ..
as i close my eyes
i can feel your burning breath
your hug as cold as fiery ice,
that brings me to my sudden death.
the cold ice that blows on my face
the tears in my eyes dropped as i started to gaze
reminiscin the days when you're with me,
happy moments with you, lettin them all be.
your warm hands caressing my face
as i looked at you, on your eyes i dazed
i felt that as long as i'm with you i can never falter;
as long as i'm with you, i can never go weak.
my eyes are on you
you felt the same way too
loving you all the way
making a blissful, lasting day
oh how i long to stay by your side
just by thinking of you, i could have nearly died
but you're all that matters to me
you're all the things i want to see.
you're all i could wish for
these things running in my mind,
you're smile is all i could think of,
day and night ..
be my escape,
don't let things harm us ..
we're gonna spend our time together ..
loving you the best way i could ..
understanding you as long as i could ..
come be with me, run with me in eternal bliss.
x5:15 AM
Friday, September 29, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
wlaln. iunno what's up with the senti mood. haha. ima bit lonely right now. you know the feeling like something's lacking? or should i say the feeling of being incomplete? hehe. laln. not in the mood right now. at this moment, i just reeeally want to talk to someone.
so, this is my life. and i want you to know, that i am both happy and sad and I am still trying to figure out how could that be ..
x6:52 AM
