Friday, September 30, 2005
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
just got back. we went to mkat's house. we need to do practice for the stupid test in PE.
anyway, i really want to let go with these anger, confusion and hatred.
i don't know why up to now, i'm still affected with these kind of things, but really. i am so .. aargh!
as if my friend would care bout those stupid things. you know for a fact that ching's a close friend of mine. so why'd you have to tell her? so, ano un? nananadya ka tlga?!to let others know that you're not serious with me before?! pinapalabas mo tlgang hindi ka seryoso sa lahat ng ginagawa mo, except jan kai ****?.. as if ching cares. get a life. we don't need you.
and you know, someone told me that one thing she likes about you is, you definitely know how to play and mix-up people's emotion. very true. will you just stop this stupid game? don't f*ck with our lives. get a life of your own. no more pretensions, no more lies. just stop it. damn.
x10:20 PM
Saturday, September 24, 2005
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
yeah. i'm alone now.
everything's over.
but it's ok.
i understand ..
just let me think about you one last time ..
one last time.
x11:22 AM
Friday, September 23, 2005
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
my blood,
my poison,
my addiction.
x9:20 PM
Saturday, September 17, 2005
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
phew. got to pack my things. our retreat will be on 19, 20, 21 .. in sh0rt, it'll be this monday up to wednesday .. we're lucky if thursday will be our rest day .. it means we don't have classes for 4 days .. haha :D .. i hope my palancas for PG are not lost .. can't find lab0r's .. i hope kiko's palanca we'll be right on time :) .. our departing time is 8:00 .. s0 .. anyway, i'm not excited, nervous and all .. i can't feel the spirit of retreat .. d0n't know why .. but i wish i'm ready for it ..
x5:45 PM
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
yey! 14 today!! .. i did answer her .. aww .. new life .. should forget p0p .. since i have someone new .. i hope this would last .. no matter what, i'll never gonna leave you .. i'll stay with you .. i hope that this would really last .... :) labSha s0 much ..!!! *mwahUgz*
x6:25 PM
Monday, September 12, 2005
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
dedicated for the one i've loved before ..
as i sit here in the window thinking of you,
why do you always make me so blue?
just the thought of you crossing my mind,
there's a strange new feeling, i can find
ever since you've been here
everytime you go near
my mind starts to wander
thinking of you and me together
starting to build illusions
that often lead to confusions
nice memories starts to fade away,
everything seems so lost,
i don't know what to say ..
i've loved you before
though you have closed the door
still, i stood there waiting for you
i thought you were falling too.
it was such a strange feeling,
hard to deal with your feelings.
but then i was wrong
i need to walk for a mile long.
you used to know me
you knew my deepest desires,
my point of view,
though i don't know how you got a clue.
but then while waiting for you,
i found another person too ..
the person who made me feel complete,
the one who made my heart skip thrice a beat
She made me feel complete
love me more than i ever did
but then you knew
there's a sudden change in the way i do.
i felt bad
i felt sad
since you start sending off messages that hurt deep inside
causing a bruise that i need to hide.
could it be possible?
that the one i used to love the most,
has returned my favor,
and has secretly loved me back?
how come you didn't tell me
i've almost waited you for all my life ..
but i think it's too late,
for this is not my fate.
why'd you have to let go?
why didn't you just say no?
you made my life hard for me
you can't do anything, it's too late, so let it be ...
if i could just stop the time
and bring it back
to where we've been close
where summer ends so soon,
to where the sky fades to deep blue moon
if i could undo the things
and correct all wrong things that brings
pain to me,
i would, just to let it be ..
why do things happen on the wrong time?
it's too wrong to have you mine.
if your love's eternal,
if you cahn still wait for me,
whatever happens,
i'll still be in love with you ...
even in my next life ..
i hope you'll look for me ..
cause i'll do ..
look for you ............
--> yeah .. i used to write a lot of poems and stories .. when i feel sad .. i use this to express my feelings ..
x6:45 PM
