Thursday, March 30, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
shit. broken again. why can't i be insensitive? why do i have to get hurt? to learn from them. oh gawd. that line sucks. i'm tired of this shit. though i want to be optimistic, i can't. i don't know how i allow myself to be treated this way. look at the consequences. its like i'm going to drown in million tears. kala ko tapos nko sa gnito. di pa pla. many things are running in my mind. hayy. i just hope people will understand me. please bear with me.
i used to believe that i was a strong-willed person. but now i know. i'm not. maybe yes, but it was just like a mask. something that you use to hide what you really feel. at least i know now, i'm weak at heart.
it's like i have this strong wall built between me and the people i love.
i don't know how many tears i need to shed, but hey, i'm still young. more problems will come. but what i mean is not to feel the pain. to be insensitive. just even for awhile.
x3:32 AM
Monday, March 20, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
hmm. i just saw an unfinished poem when i was scanning my last year's notebook. i continued it anyway while waiting for the others to finish the test .. here it goes .. =)
i was happy once
when we were together
i thought that this would last forever
not knowing you're inlove with her.
my heart sank.
with all its heartache and pain.
and a heart that's faint.
what's wrong with me?
why can't it be?
the person you're longing for,
is there something you want more?
It's easy for you to forget me
and all the memories we've shared.
how could that be?
of all the pains i beared. :c
my heart sank.
with all its heartaches and pain.
i know i can live without you. i know i can.
what's with me?
it's hard for me to forget you.
hard for me to let you go ..
what did i do wrong?
for you to leave me hanging?
what did i say?
for you to forget it all.
how could you just forget me?
i feel so empty.
I guess you didn't love me at all,
you left me waiting for your call.
foolish of me to fall for a person like you,
knowing from the start you don't feel the way i do.
my heart sank.
i feel weak. though i know i can live without you
there's something more that i could do.
one thing i've learned you shouldn't be expecting
cause when you feel all the hurting
it feels like you're being torn apart.
and don't go for something that will serve as nothing
don't get hurt too much
cause you cannot lose something at first, you never had.
x7:00 AM
