Thursday, June 29, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
in span of 36 hours, i was able to finish the teen idol. i prefer all-american girl than this one. its coolerr. :D uh, the ending was, she fell for her childhood friend. yea. that's nice, but i was hoping that there would be an argument in the story. i mean between the nice childhood friend and this teenage star hottie. but, nevermind. haha. one part i really liked in the book:
and suddenly it was like, even though it was still dark out - and to tell you the truth, a little chilly in my chiffony dress - the sun had come out.
Seriously. It felt like the sun had come out and was pouring down all over me, warming me.
"I went to the Spring Fling with Luke", I explained, feeling dazzled by the way he was looking down at me ... like i mattered, "because he asked me to go with him. Not because I'm in love with him, Scott. In fact, I'm probably the only girl in this entire town who isn't in love with him. and never was."
"Is that really true?" Scott reached out and grabbed one of my hands, then held it - not tightly but not exactly like he was going to let go of it anytime soon, either - in both his own. "Then you're okay with him and ... him and Geri? You don't ... You were never ...?"
"No, of course not." I couldn't help laughing. I felt like I was in a movie. The sun was shining, little birds were tweeting around my head. I thought any second a rainbow might break out, and a show choir would appear singing. "I was never in love with Luke - " and then - amazing but true - it just kind of slipped out. The truth. As easily as if we'd been talking about books or something.
" - the way I am with you. "aw. isn't that sweet? sweetest thing a guy could hear. ohmygod. haha. it's just so .. sweet. :D That's the reason why the girl don't date. Because she was waiting for her friend, like to ask her out. and in the story, she wasn't aware that she had feelings for the guy. But the guy knew his all along. omg. haha. sweet. like it occured to me? haha. twas funny. i was blushing while reading the book. i felt it. hehe. :P
x3:51 AM
Friday, June 23, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
>excerpts from the all-american girl<
(part i loved the most. haha.)
and the number-one reason i am likely to die young :
1. My heart is broken.
It really is. All the signs are there. I can't sleep, I can''t eat - not even
burgers. Everytime the phone rings,my pulse leaps ... but it's never for me. It''s never HIM.
I realize it is my own fault - I messed everything up myself. But that doesn't make it feel any better. Self-inflicted wound or not, it"s still there.
And the fact is, human beings can"t really function with a broken heart. I mean, sure, I could live without David. But what
kind of life would it be? An empty-hell sort of life. I mean, I h a perfect chance at love, and I blew it. BLEW IT! Due to the fact that even though my eyes were open, I was not seeing. I wasn't seeing at all.
x6:00 AM
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
yey! 3-day vacation. no classes on mon. :D woah. this day was quite .. i don't know. :P
quite pathetic. but. twas alright. :D
quite pathetic because:
*we have three unit tests.
*trixie wasn't feeling well earlier this day. (iunno why i'm affected by this. uhm. maybe because i just couldn't enjoy the company of tf without trixie. c;)
*i was called by our trigo teacher. (well, i was taking down notes, listening, at the same time, reading a book, which i think she noticed that's why she called my attention. my hands were quite shaking because i didn't know how she came up with the coordinates. haha. but i get the part wherein you solve for the basics and filling up the chart.
but the day was quite goodsince:
*trixie wasn't sick at all. just had a headache. but i think she's ok now. since i saw her at plant with razzel and hazel. :D
*though i was called, i had answer her question. good thing i copied everything she had written on the board few days ago. :) keepin track of my notes.
*and. i. just. finished. reading. the book. :D ohmygod. the book was good! like what ching said. :D
woah. way to go. :D
x4:12 AM
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
phew. wow. no classes on monday, june 26. due to the PTA Organization on Sunday. surprisingly, we have shortened classes on fri. dismissal time will be 2 pm. but before anything, at the same day, we're gonna have 3 unit tests! sn kpa?! we've just started the school year, and now we're gonna have 3 unit tests! looks like we need to undergo to lots of these, before having our 3-day vacation.
but hopefully, i know we can do it. come what may. i'll really try to be responsible this time. hihi. ok. i'll do it.
i barely have time to read books. on free time, i will. i would also like to learn basic french (because of history, we are told to researh on 1 language, and give 5 words. but i gave 17. c:). that is, if i still have time.
oh i will. :)
x4:19 AM
Friday, June 16, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
haii. as always. antagal ko ng di nauupdate ang blog ko. iont even know if i'll still keep this even though iont have time to update this ., nwei. today wasn't that good. i wore my hooded jacket the whole day! haha. ts because i'm having a hard time adjusting to people. honestly, iont think i have recovered from the "muse thingy" incident last year. memories are still fresh in my mind. though i know i have to learn from it, it's just so hard not to think about it.
early this morning, while having our daily worship, my eyes were like filled with tears. i was bothered by this thing a night ago. and i couldn't help thinking bout what had happen before. it just keeps on running - through my mind. i was completely bothered - i didn't do the things i need to do. i wasn't in the mood. i felt bad.
my insecurity grew when of course, as everyone knows, i'm the last girl in our row. i don't have a seatmate - just frontmates. my classmates used to tease me, being the last girl in the row, and being the last number - not that i took it personally, but it adds to my thinking (whether people are true or not). i just felt alone. damn. i hate the feeling. i soo hate it. iont want to feel that way. i want to sit beside ching, but we're not allowed to transfer. i want to go to richelle's place, but i can't. i grew sadder.
and awhile ago, health time. i just can't take it. the feelings burst out. i don't know how it happened. it just happened.
but now, i think we're fine. but i still don't know whose problem is it. is it theirs because they made me feel this way last year? or is it mine because i wasn't able to adjust - regarding to waht happened last year, ?
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