Thursday, August 31, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
still living in the past. can't believe im stuck here. it happened a year ago. but then, it's hard for me to forget all about it. iunno. i find it difficult. it hurts. but it's not my comfort zone. i have to let go of it for me to be able to grow and to move on. but there's this thing that stops me from doing it. maybe because i was deeply hurt and i could not forget it. i mean, yea. maybe i can. but not now. not that easy.
ma'am told me that she won't be able to come to the retreat. aw. that hurts. i was planning to talk to her and open my pent-up feelings.
honestly, i haven't moved on. everytime i remember it, it still hurts. it even makes me cry. :( i just want to forget it. like what they say, past is past. but then i just couldn't. maybe because there was no forgiveness, that's why, up to now, though i want to forget it, there's something that's holding me back.
and though i don't want to attend the retreat, i have to.
x5:24 AM
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
maybe i'm not on the right track.
it worked for patsab.
i did what she did.
maybe ts because i didn't accept the fact that ..
.....
a little more.
if this time, it really WON'T work out,
iont know.
it'll be gone.
x4:36 AM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
phew. kinda busy this week. also next week. prang wla nding ggwin. haha. thursday, august 31, celebration of Linggo ng Wika. friday, september 1, first friday mass then theatre playing of florante and laura at afp theatre (again). :)) then next week, september 6-8, wednesday to friday, retreat at tagaste, tagaytay (again.) then september 8 .. cards out. phew.
kaia toh. haha.
i'm having this plan not to attend the retreat. iunno if kaia.
whenever i think of retreat, there are only if's and buts ..
that's all i could think of.
but i have to. i mean attending the retreat.
sna kaianin.
please ln..
nwei. kaia toh. bt ko ba iniicp? hehe. i'll be fine. I WILL.
x4:04 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
9 Hardest Things In Life
1. Being Question when you yourself don't understand.
2. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about.
3. Trying to forget something you know you
never will.
4. Admitting you were wrong after you have been so
consistent that you were right.
5. Debating with yourself.
6. Accepting the fact that something's not meant
to be.
7. trying to understand when you really can't.
8. Realizing that you have been tricked after you
have given your whole trust.
9. Parting & letting go of someone you have
learned to love.
-- man. soo true. :)
x8:22 AM
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
i was looking for adventure and thrill few days back. actually knina din ee. hehe. i don't know, but i found myself searching and reading articles about some scary crap. am i trying to scare myself? lol. :)) yesterday, we were told to research in the library for an assigment (effects of the war between israel and lebanon). i wasn't really doing the assignment. instead, i read some books. then after, we went up. back to the classroom. we formed a circle at the back then told some scary stuffs. the horror began. lol. :))
honestly, i don't believe in them. i rarely get those goosebumps. except maybe if i'm feeling cold. hehe. twas funny, the same time i enjoyed the stories, since i was like searching for some scary stories. mybe just to thrill myself.
but then, some of it, i think it really happened. i don't know. i just got the feeling that it DID happen. haha.
x6:15 AM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
my computer broke down about a week ago. twas just fixed last night. that's why i never had a chance to update my blog.
i'm currently in the comp. sci.lab today. tf already did our group project. now we're done. we were allowed to surf the net.
nwei. we just finished our chinese wedding ceremony. gawd. my feet hurts. my shoes are tight. i think. too bad. my classmates won't lend me their slippers. they're all using it. i should have brought mine. :(
soo tiring. i hope we don't have discussions later on.
oh anyway, migui's coming back today! i chatted with her last night. i soo miss her.
x7:50 PM
