Saturday, October 28, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
senti mode. haha. no. just kiddin. a bit.
doesn't matter anyway. i just don't want to fall for someone who isn't really for me. it hurts. finding out that the one you like, has another purpose -
whatever. come what may. i'll just wait for tweenie to get online. -_-
x5:22 AM
Friday, October 20, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
wee! exams are over! a lil bit of project-making + remedial HO + outbound .. then leads to sembreak! :)) one major activity down! :P
x9:56 PM
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
was it all because of the stupid dream that was really bothering me? i hope not.
first day of the quarterly exam. [major] twas kind of shitty if you ask me. i studied, prepared for the test especially in chemistry. CLE was fine. but chem was reeaaally hard. i wasn't able to finish the test! we even extended our time [though it was only ten minutes .. ]. i was mental blocked. there were some questions i skipped, and like ended up not answering it. i skipped it so i could answer the others before i ran out of time, but it was useless. careless dn! i didn't know we're supposed to use the hund's rule! iunno what's wrong. damn.
x10:06 PM
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
had a very nice wake up call awhile ago. grb. :))
i was really sleepy. after i woke up, i slept again. i have this weird dream about ..... wla na sha sa schl ee. nwei. she sounds like she's crying. i was talking to her on mobile, i can hear her, but she can't hear me. iont know what happened to her. dko na sha nccontact.
nwei. i reeaaally hate creepy crawlies. especially the ones that you usually see, nkadikit sa wall. lizard! yikes. everyone in my fam knows about that. aioko nga mkakita ng lizard ee, makalapit pa kaia . :))
kninang morning, while in the school bus, we were at the last house, before pmunta ng schl. twas a quiet morning, suddenly dsturbed by our shrieking and screaming. :))
my sister called my attention. i snobbed her thinking na nanttrip nnaman sha. pero nung pnancn ko, she told me na mai lizard daw sa window. in short, mai lizard sa tabi ko!!
imagine our reaction! cee rachelle sumigaw din ee. :)) as in non-stop. :)) eh we were seated in front, beside the driver, eh eung driver wla dun, bumaba ng bus. we really wanted to go out of the bus, pero di kami pwde dumaan dun sa side ko since andun eung lizard. :)) iunno how it got there .. weird.
we were trying to get out of the bus, pero antagal bgo kme nkalabas. cgaw ln ng cgaw. :))
ngcng ata nmen mga tao sa schl bus. scandalous thing eun ah. :))
pero grbe. kun mai spy cam eun, then nkta ng iba, sobrang humor. :))
x3:36 AM
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
021506
i was waiting for you to return, but you never came back home ..
i thought you'll never leave me. but i understand. sorry if i wasn't able to fight my feelings for you. at least you've decided ..
it's better off this way. to go on with our own lives .. in different paths .. it's just that i can't forget you .. but somehow i will ..
i have to learn to let you go .. to hold off to our memories.
it was you who lifted me up when i was down. who helped me stood up on the ground, stood up for what i believe in, for letting me see and appreciate the world when i can't, you who held me when i lost my grip, you never left me alone .. you were always the person whom i turn on to when i need someone to be there.
i never should have let you go. my heart longs for you. i want to be with you again. but maybe through this i could pay back all the things you've done .. for the sufferings i've caused, for the pains i gave you and all ..
i hope you'll be happy in whatever path you'll take ., i'll just be here for you .. stay right here .. hoping, wishing and waiting ... ***
-excerpts from my personal journal.
x4:45 AM
Monday, October 16, 2006
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
as usual. it's been long since i last updated this blog. :)) lately, you may have not heard of me, or the things i usually do. i'm not that open to things or to my feelings anymore ..
haha. just kiddin. but really. i have stuffs to do.
i wasn't in a good mood by then. especially lately. iont know if i acted too much or what - but that was really how i felt.
and it was a bit embarrassing in my part - like i was humiliated in front of a mass. heehee.
twas good jentan's still there - helping me .. if it wasn't for her, i wouldn't have survive. haha.
no. but i reeally, reeally wanna thank you. i'll be here for you no matter what. tweenie kta ee. sna nbbasa mo toh. :)
x5:24 AM
INFATUATED.
SMITTEN.
BESOTTED.
-- you left me here with nothing to be done, but to think of you .. and you are the only thing .. that keeps on running in my mind ..
as i close my eyes
i can feel your burning breath
your hug as cold as fiery ice,
that brings me to my sudden death.
the cold ice that blows on my face
the tears in my eyes dropped as i started to gaze
reminiscin the days when you're with me,
happy moments with you, lettin them all be.
your warm hands caressing my face
as i looked at you, on your eyes i dazed
i felt that as long as i'm with you i can never falter;
as long as i'm with you, i can never go weak.
my eyes are on you
you felt the same way too
loving you all the way
making a blissful, lasting day
oh how i long to stay by your side
just by thinking of you, i could have nearly died
but you're all that matters to me
you're all the things i want to see.
you're all i could wish for
these things running in my mind,
you're smile is all i could think of,
day and night ..
be my escape,
don't let things harm us ..
we're gonna spend our time together ..
loving you the best way i could ..
understanding you as long as i could ..
come be with me, run with me in eternal bliss.
x5:15 AM
